Hello world!

As WordPress said…Hello world!  I am starting a blog to try and document what is happening my uninteresting life.  I probably will not have any “grand” stories of travel but you know what…I am okay with that.  Michael and I have a good life and we are getting ready to make a decision that could make it a great life.  Should we become foster parents?  As you can tell from my inference….I so want this to happen but Michael (right fully so) has some questions.  We have officially started our foster parent training with Georgia Agape due to be completed the weekend of March 1st.  OMG…..WOW….I can’t hardly stand it and I am so trying not to “bug” Michael about this because I know he has to be on board 100% for this to work.  

For those that do not know us; we have been married for over 13 years and we have never been blessed with a child.  No pregnancies, no miscarriages, and no medical reason that we do not conceive naturally….that is probably the most frustrating part of our inferility…no answers to our questions!  For those that have struggled with infertiliy, you understand the pain and frustration that I have felt over the years.  I had a checklist of goals and accomplishments that I wanted for my life when I was young: 

1. graduate college

2.  fall in love

3.  get married

4.  live in the city

5.  buy a house with 2 bathrooms within 3 -5 years

6.  start a family within 1 year of moving in our new home (I even have 6 names already picked; 3 boys and 3 girls)

Needless to say this list didn’t happen the way I planned nor have all of these items been officially checked off even though it is 15 years later .  Now that I am older and wiser I notice when I review this list is that it didn’t leave room for God plan for me….hhhmmm that maybe the problem.  What do you think?  So that is what I am ready to do; start learning to let go of my control; refocus on my spiritual life and Christianity,and let God’s plan for us take shape.  Hopefully his plan  includes children; whether they are biological or not does not matter to me but I suspect it matters to Michael.  He has never come right out and said it but sometimes we are our loudest when we do not say anything. 

Well that is all of my ramblings for today and hopefully I will get better at this.  So til next time….